I don't have time for this, but here it goes.

I just realized how long it has been since I posted and wanted to put SOMETHING here. The problem is that it is spring break. And not only are the kids home, their dad is in Puerto Rico on vacation. (He wouldn't tell me where he is but Lily gave it away. Yeah, you read that right, he wouldn't tell me. Like I was going to follow him there or something. Sheesh!)

So I am sitting on the couch in my pjs with the kids at 10:30 am. We have NOTHING to eat in the kitchen and just drank the last of our milk. The love seat is covered with clean laundry. The hall is full of dirty laundry (I keep forgetting to get quarters). The floor is covered with various toys, books and apparently trash. The litter box is close to being labeled a bio hazard, as are the bathrooms. I have not seen my bedroom floor in months and the kids' room...let's not go there. There is a huge box with a Christmas tree in the hallway. I cannot move it alone and since I live alone that is a problem. There are boxes of unorganized and not really packed Christmas decorations in the dining room. I have to put away winter and bring out summer clothes. And if I have to watch Barbie Mermaidia one more time I will totally lose it!!

So, you can see that I really do NOT need to spend any more time on this computer. Yet, it pulls me back every time. Today I WILL get groceries. I should probably do at least one load of laundry since the kids are down to one clean pair of panties and have been out of clean socks for a few days now. If I were a 'good' mom I would find a way to get ALL the laundry done, but then again if I was a 'good' mom none of the things in the last paragraph would be true.

And I am watching the kids now play Barbies...TOGETHER...and not fighting. (At the exact moment I typed that they started fighting over some gold lamee pants. Apparently they do not fit one of the dolls because her 'booty is too big.' On my honor, they do not learn this stuff from me.) And I am torn between disrupting this rarely seen activity so that we can get dressed and get moving OR just putting on another movie and chilling out. No, don't let me do that. I have 9 days until I have some friends over for a get together and this place needs to be presentable or you will see this on the news:

Ok, time to move it or lose it. Wish me luck. I need it. 

The Healthcare Reformers and Docotormus Prime

Right now I wish I was really good at photo shop and could put up a Transformers picture where they are all in nursing caps and stethoscopes and Optimus Prime has a tie and a hand full of legal documents.  That might make my day better.

As it stands you just get to read today. No photos.

I currently am not offered group insurance through my employer. I am paying over $700 a month for coverage under COBRA after my divorce. I have been looking for an idividual plan that will cost me much less. Today I learned that this won't happen. Why? Because of a pre existing condition. Despite the fact that there has been no gap in my insurance coverage for my entire life, I hav been denied. What is the condition? Depression. Because I did the responsible thing and went into counseling instead of just relying on medication I have been denied. I have been informed that I cannot apply again until February 2011 because I must go one full year without counseling before I am clear to be covered.


Is this fair? Is this what you want for me? I work hard. I am a single mom. I am trying to make a better life. I have clinical depression, which is genetic. If I go off my medication I am not as good at my jobs, both at the library and as a mom. But what will I do now? I won't be able to afford the treatment I need. And God help me if I get really sick or am in an accident.

Yes, the bill has passed. But, the laws about pre existing conditions do not take effect until 2013. I guess we better all hope I am still alive by then since I won't be able to get any medical intervention in the meantime.
 
You may be asking why I can't get state insurance. Well, because my kids are not on it. They are covered by their dad. Adults cannot get Husky (the CT insurance plan) unless their kids are on it. I can stay on COBRA for 3 years, but at $700 a month that just won't happen. Right now work is paying for it, but as of July that is no more.
 
Maybe I will get lucky and another insurance company will accept me. But, at what cost? In case you can't tell, I am a bit stressed. This is doing wonders for my blood pressure. Uh oh, another pre existing condition. I am doomed!